Dear 2013

Hello 2013,
For fourty three days, it was the happiest days of my life.  There was so much joy and hope.  I was looking forward to meeting my sweet little Delilah so much.  My life would have been perfect and I could not have wished for anything more.  But then 2013 crumbled to pain and hurt, despair and anger.
We had to say goodbye to our Delilah less than a day after we met her.
Those were the happiest days.
Out kitty Sampson has been living with Chronic Renal Failure for the last few years, this year was a turning point, he started to need sub-que fluids and is going back and forth from okay to not so.
It wasn't all bad though, some good friends got married.  Some friends had their rainbow babies, a cousin had his baby.  My sister's career started.  The husband appears too be moving up at his job and I got transferred to a favorable position at work.
But none of the positives really put much of a dent in the negatives.  I'm happy that 2013 will be over, it means a new beginning and hope again, but sad.  Sad that time has moved forward and it will soon be a year, a year since we said hello then goodbye.  It's bittersweet, I want to hate 2013 but I can't, for fourty three days, it was the happiest year of my life.
Happy New Years Delilah, Mommy loves you.