Strange how it's always been there. For the longest time tomorrow was just something that I knew was going to be here. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to move towards. It wad just going to happen. I would wander in the darkness forever. Then, the sun. Tomorrow, there's going to be a rainbow.
I'm scared. Scared but I want to putt on a brave face. I know there will be tears. Tears of joy and some of sorrow for what should have been.
Delilah would want us to be happy, and we are. I know she sent this little guy to us, she picked him to be in our lives. But I miss her, I miss who she would be right now, all that she would have experienced with us.
I am excited but a little sad. I think it's just something that will be part of life. Some one will always be missing. But that doesn't mean I won't get to be happy. Ollie well fill our lives with so much joy and I will treasure every moment of it.
I look forward to tomorrow, or rather the day to begin now, as it's past midnight. I'll try my best to be positive and allow myself to be be in bliss when my rainbow comes into this world a happy healthy baby.
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