It's been a while...

I got back into making memorial critters after a little hiatus.  I forgot how good it felt to do.
A butterfly for K.  And a monkey for B.

This is not my first baby.

"Is this your first baby?" 
"No, this is my second." 
And I walk away.  That's they way it usually goes.  I will never not the existence of my precious little girl.  Lately, it's been hurting.  My heart is breaking again.  I miss her so much.  My little girl would have been two this year.  She would have been such a great big sis.  She would have picked out a special toy for her little brother.  She would have been able to enjoy her birthday a little more this year, being older.  I miss my sweet little girl and what should have been.  I am so grateful to her.  She was so strong, even when she's not here.  She sends me special messages to let me know things will be okay.  She helped pick out her little brother.  I love my little girl and really wish she was here now.