Day 17

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Day 17: Do you feel your child is watching over you?
I'm not sure how much I feel that Delilah watches over us.  I think maybe it might be confusing for me because I'm a bit confused about what to believe.  I believe in reincarnation, that she will come back to us as our next baby.  I think there was an undeniable connection there.  The three sould signed a contract, she'll be back. 
But where is she right now?  In heaven? Limbo, temporary place?  Is she whole, does she feel, or is she just energy and potantion waiting somewhere for her chance to spark again?  Are the images I have of her sitting with other kids and eating a playing some reflection of where she's at?  Does she hear us at night when we say goodnight to her.  Does she see me cry and feel sad too? 
I think I want to believe that she is a floaty spirit in some really nice place.  That she is happy and just waiting for the time to come back to us.  I believe thst she does watch over us, and she does get sad, but maybe my grandparents, my dog and cat are looking out for her, keeping her company until it's time for her to head back to us.