I work in a Admin building. Different aspects of the county government are handles at various offies throughout the building. Sometimes you see people in other offices and then sometimes it'll be months before you see them again. One woman who always made small talk with me bumped into me infront of the coffee cart. She goes, so do you have any babies yet? When are you going to start?
I look at her with my "dead inside face" and tell her I actually had a baby in February, she starts to congratulate me but I interrupt her and tell her that the baby passed away. She goes, "Oh I'm so sorry, GOD knows though, he has a purpose. You are still young, you can have another. How do you feel about that?"
WTF, seriously? I wanted to tell her that I feel that HER GOD CAN GO FUCK HIMSELF. But I dind't, I just said It makes me feel sad.
I'm not going to get into the "God" stuff. But the "You can have another." I've heard it so many time before but I don't know why people think that it's an okay thing to say. We spent 5 months dreaming, hoping, peeing on sticks. Then 9 full months building up our dreams. Researching, decorating, falling in love. Then to have Delilah taken away like that.
It insults Delilah when people say that, it makes me feel like I need to cut those people because they disrespected the most beautifully loving person I ever knew.
How do I make them understand? Is it like you are so excited to be getting married, you plan your wedding, invite everyone, spend lots of time and money investing on this event that will send you on your journey of happiness. Then at the alter after you say I do and it's official, your husband keels over and you hold him as he dies for no reason. They don't know why it happened. You can always get remarried?
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