I thought I was doing well today. I kept busy. I created a blog, wrote about Delilah. I got teary eyed but I managed to to mostly be okay. I crocheted a bunch of baby hats for the NICU.
Then I saw a friend just had his baby girl on Facebook. I thouht thatbi was happy for them but then I broke. I got sad then angry. I got mad that everyone had their babies except me. I even took it out on my husband who's been nothing but nice. I got angry, I wanted to destroy things, smash things.
Then I got angry at myself again. What if... if only I did this... Then I cried and now I'm numb. I just want to hold my baby.
Then I saw a friend just had his baby girl on Facebook. I thouht thatbi was happy for them but then I broke. I got sad then angry. I got mad that everyone had their babies except me. I even took it out on my husband who's been nothing but nice. I got angry, I wanted to destroy things, smash things.
Then I got angry at myself again. What if... if only I did this... Then I cried and now I'm numb. I just want to hold my baby.
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